Hi all
I try not to post about myself too much on here but I am so stuck at the moment. Life is changing so much and I feel myself slipping again and I cannot stop it. Any advice would help as I cannot seem to make a gamble/decision/change or whatever it is.
The problem:
The old neck/arm/shoulder and arm TMS stuff began last week a day before I sent of my new portfolio for industry positions. With it happening the day before I don't feel I can link it to applying for the jobs. We all know how bad it gets when we have an attack so no need to explain all that (I am learning!). Since May/June I had cracked this been pain free for nearly 95% of that time but this is old skool, getting me where it hurts.
Anyway I got the job but its the other side of the country to my partner who now cannot relocate as she just got a job this week funnily enough in what she has always wanted to do. This job for me is what I have worked towards getting for the last 4 years but I am worried to the core that I stress myself out with it too much and my arms etc will always be there to spoil it for me.
I don't know if I can handle:
Actually doing the job. Alot of stress and major overtime.
It has a lot of responsibility compared to what I have done before.
Moving by myself down there
Handling my mental state without the people I need here
Risking moving everything down there and putting deposits etc just to move back and lose our current place.
Risk my reputation in a very in a inbred industry before I have fully recovered.
Then if I don't take it and recover again I will beat myself up while working these warehouse jobs :(
I really hate TMS
I got offered today to start next Jan and I feel stuck.
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Stuck
Posted - 12/12/2008 : 04:39:33
